Charged Raw Consumption

It’s been so long
since you went away
It’s been so long
since we’ve been together
I’ve been so lonely
I don’t know what to do.

I remember back when
we were together
holding hands
living it up
our love was our passion
our love consumed our lives
you told me I was your answer
answer to your cries
how I’m left behind
with nothing left to show
for all of what I gave you.

When was the last time
you were truthful with me
when was the last time
you told me how—
you were feeling
you were thinking
when was that time
when was that time

It was not fair for you
to turn me inside out
It is not nice to change your mind on me
I want to know, how you feel
I want to know, I can’t understand
how you can just hurt me
I want to know.

What happened to the words and promises
the promises you gave,
when will the pain end?
I’m asking for my heart, for a cure,
to the heartache that is so raw
for the pain to subside
I’m terrified of myself
afraid of myself
afraid of this pain
give me back my heart
so I can rebuild my life.

let me rebuild.
I’m tired.